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Post-Op Roller Coaster


Wednesday marked three weeks since my back surgery. Somehow it’s only been three weeks and it’s already been three weeks at the same time. I’m not doing as good of a job as I thought I would being positive. I’m impatient.

I went back to work last week Tuesday. I meant to go in only a couple of hours, but ended up there for six. I even got on the treadmill that night. Don’t worry, I hadn’t planned on pushing it. I walked just one mile.

And it took me 25 minutes.

That’s right, I was pushing myself to walk 2.5 miles per hour. Rough. But I told myself that I’d continue to do it everyday since walking is supposed to make my back stronger.

But I didn’t. I think that that pace and time may have even been too  much to start. I followed up the rest of the week working five to six hours each days. The sad part? I work at a desk all day, but by the time I got home, I was exhausted.

Physically exhausted. Every night.

The week was rougher than I expected. When I was at home, I felt like I should have been  outdoing so much more… that I felt okay, just a little sore. But then, when I’d leave the house, it just seemed to be too much. I have to remind myself that I feel much better than I did even one week ago. That this is progress. That I should be grateful.

Also, I think I tried to stop my meds too soon. I didn’t want to become dependent on them. I didn’t want to run out and worried that they might not give me another refill. What kind of thinking is that?! By the time I run out, I’d be feeling better than I am now, right? My husband and friends reminded me that I have them for a reason. So I stopped fretting about that. And in the last few days, I’ve tapered off a little bit each day naturally. Now I’m just taking them at night. Silly worry.

I think the hardest part, though, right now is that I look fine to everyone else, so I feel like I should be fine all the time. I can walk normally now – YAY! So I feel like I should be able to move and do just about anything. But instead, I still have a hard time focusing at work and I’ve gone in late a couple of days due to lack of sleep. The pain I have is not nearly as bad, but it is a different kind of pain.

My biggest problem right now may be my mental state.

It’s frustrating that while I can walk, shower, sit, stand and lie down on both my back and side now, that there are still so many things that I can’t do. I attempted the treadmill again tonight  and put the speed on 2.0. It took  me 30 minutes to walk a whole mile. And it was still difficult – over one week later.

Instead, I need to be grateful.

I need to remember that this is just the beginning. I’m going to start charting my walking so that I can see my progress. I think that will help. I need to focus on what I can do. Maybe I should note those things, too. I need to take things slowly and realize that this is a process. While progress is slow, it’s still progress. I’m just anxious and impatient! And the fact that spring is taking so long to come around these parts doesn’t help all that much either.

Phil, you were oh-so-wrong!

So I found a couple of quotes to help get me through this roller coaster of emotions and physical capabilities. Here are a few of my favorites.


And I think my favorite:

“Healing is a matter of time, but it is sometimes also a matter of opportunity.”



What kinds of opportunities have you experienced during challenges or times of healing?

To Your Health~


Turning the Corner


I woke up Friday morning and it was like something changed! I am beginning to feel so much better and I’ve slowly been cutting back the dosage of the pain killers. I can’t believe how things are turning around. A week ago, I couldn’t have imagined that I’d be feeling this good.

Friday was my first day out of the house since March 6th – the date of my back surgery. Rob had the day off from work, so he took me out to lunch to see how I’d do. I was feeling quite good, so we even went to Ikea AND grocery shopping. It felt great to be out of the house and the walking did me well, too. I think I’m going to start walking on the treadmill, too, to get in some exercise and strengthen my back. Walking is highly encouraged.

Speaking of walking, have you signed up for the Challenge Obesity 5k Run/Walk yet? It’s on Sunday, April 21st in St. Paul.  You can register here. Click on the right to register and choose Team Registration. When prompted, choose Season It Already as your team!

I honestly don’t intend on running (that is the week of my 6-week post-op doctor appointment), but I do want to walk it! And the absolute worst case scenario, I will be a spectator cheering you all on. But really, that’s my last resort. I don’t want to sit this one out.

I’m going to step away from the online food journal for a while. I think taking pictures and recording everything on my blog made me obsess and think about food the entire time I was cooped up in the house. I haven’t yet weighed myself, but I can tell that I’ve put on a few pounds. {I know I have to give myself a break with the lack of movement I had.} And since I actually put real pants on on Friday, I could feel it in my clothes, too.

This weekend, in addition to my lunch out, IKEA stop and grocery shopping, I made some Crockpot Corned Beef and Cabbage using *this recipe* in honor of St. Patrick’s Day.

Corned Beef & Cabbage

I didn’t grow up eating Corned Beef & Cabbage and I don’t think I ever really had it for the first time until after college. It’s not something I ever crave, but I made it the first time last year for St. Patrick’s Day because my husband loves it. I used the recipe above and he enjoyed it so much that I decided not to change it up. In fact, I really like it, too. This will be the recipe I’ll be using year after year!

On Saturday, I was feeling so good that I felt up to going out to dinner and to see a band. We made sure that I had a seat, so that I wouldn’t be pushed around in a crowd. However, on Sunday morning, I decided that I probably had pushed it too far. I had plans of things to get done on Sunday, but didn’t end up doing any of them. I spent much of the day in bed sleeping and on the couch watching TV.

The thing was that I had every intention of going back to work today. But although I went to bed early last night, I didn’t wake up until 8:30 this morning. And I don’t feel so hot. It’s more my stomach than anything, but I was a little sore, too. So we’ll see. Maybe I’ll make it there for a few hours. Maybe I’ll give it another day. It just goes to show that even if you are feeling significantly better, you shouldn’t push it. There’s no point in going backwards. Still, I am quite anxious to get back to work.

And although spring isn’t quite here yet in Minnesota, I have an extreme urge to do some spring cleaning, organizing and purging. I’ve already started with cleaning out our coffee/tea cupboard, but I’m still trying to hold myself back and not do too much.

Are you itching to clean or reorganize this time of year?

If so, do you have any rituals or things in particular that you do?